The Night I Won't Forget Till the Day I Die

I've never dreamed that this kind of lucky thing will ever happen in my life. Me, only a month being a fan of MBLAQ and a crazy fangirl of Lee Joon, actually went to see them live on their concert in Jakarta. If not because of the contest, maybe i'll only be the girl that envy all the A+ out there that can watch them closely with their own eyes..... but i guess i'm lucky enough..
I mean, really, my first time going to a concert, and the concert is actually MBLAQ's 1st Asia Tour. I am so happy and i'm thankful that i got this opportunity... Seeing Joon, and the boys, live, with my own eyes, only a few meters away from my feet, i guess i'll die with no regrets if God decided to end my life..
I'm not going to make a fanaccount because i know there's already thousands of fanaccounts along with the reviews from medias. So, i think will just say that, by watching MBLAQ concert, i become an absolute A+, nothing can change that!
Seungho, with his one pack tummy, hypnotized me with his excellent piano playing of 'Sad Memories' which he wrote and composed by himself. G.O, successfully made my heart flutter by his soft yet powerful voice, and his body.... okay.. Cheondung, he's so sweet, his performance was perfect and the song 'Don't Go' was never been heard anywhere because it wasn't released yet, and he's so pretty like snow white. MIR, damnit, he's so charismatic, i screamed loud when he performed than when my baby JOON performed..
yeah, why? because Joon performed while flirting with another girl which wasn't me!! well, i'm not jealous, i just wish it was me so that i can touch him, kiss him or rape him..hahaha.. yeah, i'm a crazy fangirl anyway.. i even feel embarrassed watching to my own fancam which recorded my voice, exactly when i yelled "take it off! take it all off!" and what i meant was him to take all of his clothes off!! right, i'm a pervert... his chocolate abs is my vitamin, his body is my drugs, and his 'babo'ness is my love! Joon is my everything!!!
I've sent a letter to him, i hope he get the small gift i slipped inside it... and read all the stupid things i've wrote for him.. i want him to smile with my silly letters..
well, anyway, watching MBLAQ concert is two different things to me. The good thing is i finally see them with my own eyes and i believe that they are really good looking and talented. The not-so-good thing is i cried everytime i remember of the night. i want more, i want more than just encore, i want them to stay by my side.. it's actually a lot like G.O and MIR's song, Even in My Dreams..

정말 내가안보이니?? 너를 원하고 또 원하는 나 사랑도 못하는 나 이렇게 맘 아픈데~
(do  you really didn't see me? i am the one who wants you and want to love you, but can't love..my heart hurts)

내 잎술이 너를 말하고~ 내 눈물이 떠난 너를 기억해~ 너를 사랑하고 싶은데 그개 안되 바보같이~
(my lips speak you, my tears remember you, you who left.. like an idiot, with this love that will never works out)

오직 너하나만 바라볼래 내 사랑을 다 줄래~ 내 품에 널안을래~
(i only want to look at you, i want to give you my love, i want to hold you in my arms)

너를 만나기 전보다 더.. 난 좀더 외로워 :'(
(i'm now even more lonelier than before i met you)

내 꿈에서라도~
(in my dreams)


seriously, honestly, i've cried after the concert, i guess my heart can't take it...seeing the boys left the stage and won't come back to perform.. i miss them the second the concert ends.. i can't help but cried...
and after the concert, two days ahead, i always cried whenever i heard MBLAQ songs, or missing Joon :'(
even now, i still feel gloomy whenever i miss them..
i wish someday i can see them and talk to them freely like friends... with all of them ^^