Lonely Feeling

Not sleepy at all, not even having a bad mood
I just missing some parts of mine
Feel so lonely even if the music screams out loud
Like the world around me wasn't made for me

Across the sea, under this same sky
Different land, breathing this same air
You are there and i am here

Not weary at all, not even wanting a good times
I just wanting you to be mine
Feel so lonely even if the door were still open
Like the space around me wasn't belong to me

Wish that i will see, wonder why that i cry
Different life,  kissing the same pain
You are there and i am here


If there's someone can pull me out of this loneliness
I know it's you
If there's someone can get me out of this sadness
I hope it's you

Old TVXQ5 that i missed a lot...

Well, so.. i just watched this video collection of mine (again) and i found this radio interview when the members were asked to say what was on their heart to the person next to them..and i found it... more interesting than before..

So here's the arrange sitting of the boys..

TVXQ

(left) Junsu > Yuchun

(center) Jaejoong 

(right) Yunho > Changmin

And here's the message they've made that night! + and my opinion of course +

Junsu to Yuchun

Yuchun, six years have gone by so quickly since we have become members of TVXQ. You are also the only one who is in my age. If you see, the two of us, I have gotten closer to you than with any of my other friends. You aren’t only a friend, you’re a family, like a brother. I think without your presence and your support, I wouldn’t be here today. Oh God, I can feel the tears coming. You are very reliable. I feel assured knowing that he is here. And I am confident that he will show people an even better side of him than he is showing now. Work hard and I hope to continue to perform well with him. 네, 사랑한다 유천아! > I love you Yuchun!

>>Actually, while saying all of this things, i can see that Junsu were trying hard to hold his tears. It's not tears of sadness of course, it's tears from the deep brotherly feeling. And it surely had happened until now, Junsu and Yuchun always be together. In his musical, Junsu add some adlib on his dialogue, he said 'why do you have this wide forehead?' to his paper tiger puppet that also named by him 'Yuchan', and we all know that he likes to tease Yuchun's wide forehead. Wow..

Yuchun to Jaejoong

Jaejoong hyung, I think other members feel like this too but I have relied a lot on Jaejoong hyung. When I struggle since the other members can’t drink a lot, I end up drinking with Jaejoong hyung. So we end up sharing a lot of time together. I rely a lot on him and I want to thank him for that. He’s someone I want to spend a lot of my life with in the future. Oh God, I can’t make it any longer. 

>> In his turn, i can see that Yuchun's voice were trembled and he was near to cry. Everyone knows that he is the crybaby of the group. So, he stopped with the short yet deep meaning message for Jaejoong. (i think i'm going to cry too) well, now that JYJ are together, i think he kept his word to spend a lot of his life with Jaejoong.

Jaejoong to Yunho

Yunho, he is my friend. And he has strength unlike me, who is very weak sometimes. Even yesterday, I leaned on Yunho for support. Because right now, the five of us are so happy. I felt that, ‘what if this happiness disappears in time?’ and I felt a sudden wave of anxiety. It maybe because it is fall. But Yunho assured me very well and he’s been doing so ever since we first met. I hope he will continue to let me lean on him and I think he is the best leader ever. Gomapta.

>> So, where are you Mr. Best Leader? Why didn't you let him lean on you anymore? Jaejoong, when he said all of this things, was avoiding to look on Yunho's eyes. Why? I don't know. But judging by his words, i think he was trying to say "Yunho, please don't let me leave you.." but everything happens for a reason right? Now that we know the real side of Mr........ again, i will make you think of it by yourself. I'm glad that Jaejoong still have Yuchun and Junsu and me of course!


Yunho to Changmin

Our youngest member Changmin, seriously we joke and say he loses his temper a lot and stuff, but he is the most thoughtful guy and he takes care of us a lot. Also, he is my best friend, they also call it bff these day. When I am having a really hard time, he tells me a lot of things. And you know how these are some things you can’t tell your older brothers? But Changmin tells me a lot about those things, and although he is the youngest, I rely on him a lot as a friend. And I’m embarrassed about that sometimes because I am older, so I don’t thank him a lot of the time. So I want to take time out now to thank him. Thanks Changmin.

>> pft... short comment from me., maybe, THIS is why Changmin stayed!

Changmin to Junsu

Junsu hyung is my blood time B companion from the beginning to the end. A lot of people talk about Junsu, I’ve heard them and so have the others. They say that they wish to have a son or a kid just like Junsu. They wish they could meet a guy like Junsu. They say that a lot. He makes us feel very relaxed and at ease. And he doesn’t care if he looks stupid as long as he gets a laugh out of people. I get a lot of reassurance from him, which gives me strength, I think everyone gets comfort from Junsu hyung, whether they know it or not. He is a guy who TVXQ couldn’t be without, one of the jokers. There are  a lot of things I am sorry and thankful for, since I bully him a lot. I want to tell him that I thank him and I love him very much.

 >> Honestly, i ship Changmin and Junsu couple than YunJae!!! And i always think that Changmin was angry because JYJ left, was actually because he wasn't able to make them stay or at least go with them. He is Yunho's bestie, Jaejoong's favorite baby brother, Junsu's ally. so, Changmin, i'll wait for you to join JYJ!!

any comment?

Another Personality Test and these are more accurate!

I did this Personality Test and got this result for my personality type, it is INFJ!

Introverted (I) 61%    Extraverted (E) 39%
Intuitive (N) 64%    Sensing (S) 36%
Feeling (F) 75%    Thinking (T) 25%
Judging (J) 59%    Perceiving (P) 41% 

This one is from Oprah's website, Who Am I Meant to Be?
my result was kinda LONG for Merlin's wand sake, so i've posted it on my facebook..
But trust me, this test it what you need to get to know about yourself more!

Now, even if i am already a Ravenclaw student in Hogwarts, this test is great. Now, Find Your Hogwarts House
and for my result it is :

The sorting hat says...

Ravenclaw!

i am 76% Gryffindor, 94% Ravenclaw, 80% Hufflepuff, and 74% Slytherin.

Said Ravenclaw, "We'll teach those whose intelligence is surest."

Ravenclaw students tend to be clever, witty, intelligent, and knowledgeable.

Now, What Color Is Your Aura? quizzes time...

• According to BlogThings my Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life. You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships. The purpose of your life: showing love to other people
Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah
Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

• According to Go To Quiz  Your Result: Yellow

  You are smart, open-minded, and enthusiastic. You love to learn! Optimistic about life and easygoing, yellows are like the sun--bright, inspired, and warm. They are lifelong students, and often do well in math, medicine, and the sciences.
  Orange
  Blue
  Green
  Brown
  Red

• According to Quizopolis my Aura is Blue 
  

You love to talk. You go along your own path in life and don't follow the flow of society. You work best in a structured environment. 

• According to AllTheTest result :  
  For 40 % you are: Your aura is indigo! You are peace-loving and most likely have Psychic or Telekinetic powers or abilities! You are one of the few chosen children to change the world and help the planet! More and more Indigo Children are being born every day, to help the earth! If you were born before 1970, meaning you are an adult, though, then you're really special! Congratulations! (Remember, only you can determine what your true aura is! This quiz is only somebody else's opinion!) For more info on Indigo Children, look up "Indigo Children" on the Internet!
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Deep Quotes on AADBSK3 from the 'nice' members!

It was when TVXQ were having fun playing water game in Saipan.. the game was great and they were really seems to be happy!

There are quotes that i found it 'cheesy' but have a hint for their current state now..

See what they said in their 'diary' of the day..

MAX CHANGMIN the maknae (youngest) who loves his hyungdeul (older brothers) so much said, "Great time ever, there, we five, were all together!"

It clearly showed how much he loved being together as five and having a good time together. I admit it, even if he acts strong, tough, harsh or whatever you would say, he is just another younger brother who loves his brothers. I understand now that he was so disappointed and angry when the three left the company, or as the company said 'left the group'. Actually, they never leave the group, they left the company. If only Changmin would go with them, but no, he chose to stay by his other hyung side because he is too kind to left this 'hyung' of his.

XIAH JUNSU the angel from TVXQ (or now, he's JYJ's) said, "So good! Wonderful! No matter where we are, Saipan or Vegas, we are always be together. We are the one!"

Junsu who once cried because the leader and the oldest fight, could no longer cry to stop this new incident. He is now grew up to be a mature man and he knows now how to face the problem. Even sometimes crying could relieve stress but he chose to be strong to keep on his principles. Junsu, he always loves the time being together with the members. He used to joke around with the members, played with the leader and get bullied by the maknae, he loved it all. But you might ever heard about this quote 'Before you love someone else, learn how to love yourself first!' and i think Junsu as a mature now, he already finds out a way to love his self more.

MICKY YOOCHUN the crybaby, he said, "It feels like going back to the earlier times when we made a debut. You'll never know how much i missed it!"

You know what, i was surprised that my crybaby oppa haven't cry anymore. He was cried when TVXQ got their first award, he was cried when their single got number one on chart, he cried when he feels happy and when he is sad. He said about the time when they were just debuted and he missed it, to me, i think he was talking about the feeling. The feeling of happiness when someone actually appreciate your hard work, the proud feelings, satisfaction. It will no longer be a happy thing when someone using you to get money and not giving your right, won't it? With the crybaby stops crying, it means he really don't regret it and need to do it!

HERO JAEJOONG the Japanese claimed Prince, the most good looking Asian guy in the world, the world's most affected guy for brands, and the magnet of attention, the guy which everything he wears and uses today will be sold out the next day, said, "The best members! And I'm being the MC supported by 800000 Cassiopeia and you watching me now are the reason for my being!"

I will say that, first, he adores the TVXQ members, second, the fans, and last his self. He is really a hero, it's not only a name, he really shows how herotic he is. But being a hero also have their weakness side, and he also have a life. He might be the oldest, the 'mom' of the group, but he also needs a protection and when nobody can protect him, he protect himself. He never cries in front of cameras when he was together with the members, he always be so cold and tough, being the oldest among four younger members isn't easy if you don't know. I was sad to see him crying a lot after the law suit, he misses his maknae and the leader mate of his. It must be so hard for him to hear the maknae said 'if you want to comeback to TVXQ, comeback to the company' and when he actually saying that he texting and trying to call the two and all of a sudden the leader stated on tv that he doesn't have any connection with him.
Jaejoong is my ultimate bias, and i love him from the every spot in my brain to the core of my heart, lever and lungs. I am mad to anyone who made my Jaejoong cried, and gloomy like he was. Whatever peoples saying, whatever the truth and no matter even if he was the culprit, my love for him will never run out. I always believe in him, because that is what i need, and that is what he needs.

so, i was about to skip the leader's quote but after i reading again the article about the leader i think i have to write it out..

Well, while the four were treasuring the time being together all along having fun and memorizing it. All he said was, "It was a great relaxing time. I think i am ready for a tight schedules again. Saipan will be the energy to move on and keep on!"

It's not that i hate him or something, but, did you notice that he was only saying about him enjoying the 'relaxing time', thinking about the tight schedules and that he was 'ready'. Well, just make your own assumption...

One more thing i found on the AADBSK3 videos. Jaejoong's last closing dialogue..

"Our last goodbye, sadder than ever. I think no words can describe how i feel now. As i watch the sunset, i feel like our beautiful memories are getting closer to you and it does feel good. For the last time, i say, goodbye!"

First time i watch the video, i thought it was only a closing dialogue, well, it was the very last quote on the video and it is a good bye. But this article about Yunho, Yoochun and Junsu Discuss Lawsuit on AATVXQ3 makes me think, was he meant to say about the 'real goodbye'? Once again, make your own assumption!

Now, no bash, hotel girls! If you want to bash, go on your own room, crash your accessories and mess off your bed. Scream off your head and shattered your mirror, but do not bash on my blog! Even idiot knows manner, not agree with me then just off!

One More (BEST) Place to DONATE

JYJ Gives 600 million KRW (600,000 USD) 

for Restoration of Japan Earthquake Damages
During the World Tour

~Will Hold Support Campaign through SNS (Facebook)~

Group JYJ is donating 600 million KRW (approximately 600,000 USD), which is the full amount of the goal for emergency relief donations by World Vision for areas which suffered the most serious harms due to Japan’s Earthquake.
According to their agency on the 16th, JYJ’s donation will provide emergency relief articles/items to Sendai and Fukushima, and are to be used for the city’s reconstruction restoration and a shelter program for children.
JYJ will not stop with this current donation but rather dedicate themselves to long-term aid. They will actively lead the effort to build awareness of the seriousness of the damages from Japan’s earthquake through their 9-city World Tour that begins in Bangkok on the coming April 2nd.
Furthermore, JYJ plan to continuously send their messages of support through the World Vision Japan Homepage. Also, JYJ will unfold through their World Tour SNS website www.facebook.com/jyjworldtourconcert, which is operated in conjunction with their official website for the duration of the tour, a campaign for “Take Heart, Japan” comments/replies and a donation program with World Vision with fans all over the world.
Not only that, for the Korean performance which is the finale of the World Tour, JYJ will add meaning by inviting volunteers (of Japan relief).
JYJ said: “To be honest, we hesitated in letting others know of our donation because of the burdens doing so brings. But we believe that our actions can serve as an impetus for getting many more others to join the effort. We hope that our donation will be used practically for helping the areas that are the most harmed by the earthquake. We hope that everyone in Japan, including those of Korean descent, will be restored of calm as soon as possible.
On the other hand, the JYJ World Wide Tour SNS website  ]www.facebook.com/jyjworldtourconcert, which is preparing the campaign, has had 50,000 fans from Asia, Europe, the Americas, and other parts of the world, visit since it’s opening a week ago.

There seem to be important points to learn from this article.
(1)   JYJ donated 600 million KRW and wishes to inspire others to also help Japan.
(2)   JYJ’s efforts to help Japan is long term. It will include;

• JYJ’s OWN DONATION CAMPAIGN FOR FANS TO PARTICIPATE WITH JYJ through the World Tour Facebook
• JYJ’s “Let’s Leave Comments Supporting Japan to Take Heart” Campaign through the World Tour Facebook
• Continuously send messages of support through World Vision Japan Homepage.

let's donate, like what our biased do!! ^^ it feels so nice helping peoples...


credit goes to JYJ3

Here, to help the animals!

Some animals are humans' friends, and 'what friends are for?'

We help our friends when they need help, don't we?

Now, here, if you have the same thing in my mind.. help them!

I got source from @SweetDreamTVXQ about this :

JAPAN’S ANIMALS NEED HELP, TOO!
For each person who ‘likes’ the Facebook Page of Dog Bless You , a dollar will be donated to help finance the use of search and rescue dogs that are so critical in disaster situations like what’s happening in Japan right now.  You can also donate to :

• Animal Refuge Kansai
• The American Humane Association
• The National Disaster Search Dog Foundation
• World Vets
• Japan Cat Network
• Heart Tokushima 
•  Animal Friends Niigata
•  Japan Animal Rescue and Support

It was thought that Cat Island had been completely submerged, but there’s been an update saying that the cats and people on Tashirojima are okay, however, they have a lot of building damage and are in need of necessities for both humans and cats.

PLEASE RETWEET! and spread the articles!
Here are some more links aimed at helping animals in Japan:

SPCA International 

Animal Miracle Foundation
Japan Earthquake Animal Rescue and Support

 
For news about Cat Island (Tashirojima) please see There is Hope for Cat Island
Update on Pet Rescue Efforts in Japan

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, 

and one of the best things you can be!

~Douglas Pagels~

JYJ Charity Foundation Japan Relief Fund

Dear Friends,

            On March 11, 2011, a ferocious tsunami spawned by one of the largest earthquakes ever recorded slammed Japan's eastern coast Friday, killing thousands as it swept away boats, cars and homes while widespread fires burned out of control. As you guys have heard by now, we are collecting donations to help the victims of the Japanese tsunami. I’m sure you’ve all seen the devastation with your own eyes, and have heard the reports of the countless lives lost and altered forever. The damage that has befallen on the Rising Sun seems almost irreparable. Even if the waves of the tsunami have not washed up onto your shores where you live, the waves of emotion, fear, and compassion has hit home to us all.

We as a human race, whether divided by geological locations, skin color, language, religion, or other, are all the same at our core. The human element of sadness, grief, frustration, confusion, and compassion has gripped us all. In such a time as this, the human element that I wish was manifested and materialized is the element of kindness. Mark Twain once said, “Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see.” Kindness can break through social and cultural boundaries and touch the hearts of men. People are encouraged to practice “random acts of kindness” but in this instance, we are to practice a deliberate intentional act of kindness; to show mercy, compassion, love, and just let people know that we care! It’s what makes us human. It’s what gives us worth. Kindness is goodness in action. We can’t explain why these things happen. It’s something beyond our realm of understanding, but what we can do is show love in action through kindness and giving in the time of need.

We have an opportunity to show compassion and kindness to the people of Japan. The images and video I’ve seen on the news has been horrific to say the least. I can’t imagine what the people of Japan are going through. Seeing the destruction, I don’t even know how we can help, if we can even make a difference, but we will try. We MUST try. We can’t stand idly by. Thousands have lost their family, children, mother, home, and even hope. Many children are crying out of hunger and fear and men and women have lost their homes and jobs. We can’t turn back time or put things the way they were, but what we can do is take action and show our kindness and a helping hand to these people that lost hope, peace, family, and their way of life. With your generosity they might be able to eat, find shelter, have a warm blanket, and perhaps reunite with their families again. We just hope for a sense of normalcy and possibly put a smile on their face once again.

We will be collecting donations from all of you to give to the people of Japan. The least we can do is offer up our prayers for them and send our gifts. This is why the JYJ Charity Foundation was created. Our mission statement, “We are a fan base of JYJ promoting the welfare of mankind through good deeds” will be our motto and steer this vehicle for future good deeds. Please join in giving to this cause. Please your best for the people of Japan. You will regret many things in life, but you will NEVER regret being kind. Thank you.

Sincerely,

John the Egg

***Translations of this letter are being transcribed at the moment. Please be patient. We will post different translations online soon!***

***Besides the credit card fees, 100% of your donations here will go to the relief of Japan. Save the Children will not charge us any overhead fees for our donations. So please be rest assured that your full donation amount WILL GO TO Japan!!!***

***For those of you who want to donate but do NOT have a credit card, different options for payment will be posted on the JYJCF Facebook site. Please stay tuned for details. We will try to accommodate everyone.***

***Here is a link to a currency converter. Please understand that you are donating in US Dollars $$ so please calculate your amount according to your own country's currency. just CLICK!

Goal  -->  $100,000

Raised so far -->  $4,693

 visit FirstGiving to DONATE.. and please remember, this is not for JYJ, and this is not because we are JYJ fans or not, but this is because we are supporting JAPAN!!!

My Fanfics and Real Life

I just finished writing my fanfic "A Sweet Black Day", and then everything comes up to my mind..

A month ago, i started writing a fanfic titled Possibility when a week after it JYJ talked about the 'possibility' 2VXQ and JYJ reunited. I was like, hey...it must be a coincidence!

And then... I was writing and posting A Sweet Black Day on Winglin (original) with a final special chapter titled "An Unforgettable White Day" a month before JYJ's management company announced that JYJ will be helding a fanmeeting with title "A Sweet White Day" on March 14th.

Sometimes i think, why it's all have a connection with my fanfics?
and then now, after finishing A Sweet Black Day, i realized, the last sentence i have in the story was... April 14th, April 14th will be my sweet anniversary with my one and only Kim Jaejoong.

OMG, what's the meaning of it? i really was just writing it and just realized it when i read it again.... APRIL, JYJ is coming to my country on APRIL!!!!!!! is it mean, i will finally met him??? i will die..... God doesn't love me that much.... ommo....

JAEJOOOOOOOOOOONG!!! oh forgive me, i'm just exciting... hehe,...

*FanProject* To Help JAPANESE Earthquake and Tsunami Victims

We can make a difference. 

We can help. 

Even a small, insignificant sum of money to you, can go a long way in helping these victims. 

Donations will be given on behalf of International Cassiopeia, a group that represents all five members of DBSK. 

Only when we work together can we create miracles.

-tohoquake-

This project is a project from TOHOSHINKI / TVXQ5's fans from around the world who wants to help the friends in Japan. 
Me, actually are a JYJ fan and since JYJ were the former members of the mentioned group, i hope so many JYJ fans will join the project or maybe make another project under JYJ name. But please remember, this is not about who your bias is and to who you stand for. This is not about HoMin this and JYJ that, but this is about our friends, who love the same group as we do, who needs our help.


So, here some  explanation about the project i copied from TOHOQUAKE page;

Tohoquake (short for Tohoku Earthquake Fund-raising Project) is a fundraising project that has been set up to raise funds for the people in Japan due to the earthquake that struck the Tohoku region of north eastern Japan near the major city of Sendai on Friday, 11 March 2011.

The 8.9 magnitude earthquake and the subsequent tsunami had resulted in devastating effects, such as fires sweeping through several areas, the suspension of transport networks and the disruption in communication networks. Furthermore, there is a rising number of both causalities and fatalities.

Hence, we have decided to come together and start this to raise funds for the people who are suffering from the earthquake and its aftermath. We are actually a group of International Cassies but we would appeal to everyone, even if you are not a Cassie, to assist us in making this project successful.

How to donate:

• Donating with Paypal through Bank account OR Paypal Balance 
• Donating with Paypal through Credit Card
• And if you want to use the name of the International Cassies, send your email to tohoquake@gmail.com include your name, amount of money donated, and a screencap for proof of donation.

Alternatively, you can still use the methods above to donate money to this project. However a 2.8% transaction fee will be deducted by Paypal. Hence, if you want 100% of the money to reach the quake victims, we would suggest this method instead.

The first collection will end on Monday, 11 April 2011.
All funds collected will be donated to the Salvation Army and it will be stated in the donation form for the money to go towards the branch in Japan to assist with its efforts in helping out both the people and their country.

For Transparency Issues <-- the list of the donors' names and the amount of donations made. As some prefer to be anonymous or to use a nickname/alias, their names are not reflected here.  (updated 13th March 2010, UTC/GMT +10:30 hours)


For more information and latest update about the donation, please visit TOHOQUAKE


thanks for reading ^^
I will post in this blog whenever a donation under JYJ name is available!